MORNIGN ALL! I PLANNED ON GETTING AN EARLY NIGHT LASTNIGHT........ NEVER HAPPENED!
THIS ALBUM MAKING PROCESS IS A CRAZY ONE...... FOR ME IT IS ANYWAY..!?!?!?!?! ITS HAS BEEN 2 YEARS OF ME TRYING TO MAKE A RECORD.... WHEN I GOT CLOSE TO SOMETHING I WAS HAPPY WITH ..... BANG A PIT OF RUMPIE PUMPIE ON THE BED AND THE LAPPY FALLS OFF AND ALL WORK GONE!!!!!!!
I WAS TOLD IT WAS A BLESSING IN DISGUSE.... I THINK IT WAS! AVOID LINES WILL ALWAYS BE MY FIRST ALBUM... BUT NEVER YOURS I GUESS?!?!? WHICH ACTUALLY FEELS QUITE SPECIAL..... NOW WORKING ON THIS ONE...... I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA GET TO SLACK A LITTLE CAUSE I AM WORKING WITH MATTHEW HERBERT.....(how fucking wrong was i?!!?!?)
HE IS LEAVING ME TO MY OWN DEVICES..... AND MAKING SURE I TEAR MYSELF APART....TO SHREDS....EVERY THOUGHT, EMOTION AND FEELING POURED INTO THIS PROCESS.... THIS SOUND MAKING!!! ITS A REALLY GREAT THING TO GO THROUGH.... FELT SO LONELY LAST NIGHT... LIKE I HAD NOBODY BUT ME... BUT I WAS GETTING ON MY OWN NERVES......!??!?
THE BEAUTY ABOUT THOSE MOMENTS FOR ME.....IS THAT I WAKE UP THE NEXT MORNING!!!!.....
I GUESS I'M FINDING IT HARD TO KEEP THINGS UNDER WRAPS AT THE MOMENT..... IM THE SORT OF PERSON THAT NEEEEDSS TO SHARE..ITS THE ARTIST I AM......... BUT IM ALSO AN ARTIST NOW WHO REALLY KNOWS WHAT HE WANTS TO SAY AND I AM NOOOOOOT GONNA COMPROMISE AND GIVE HALF DONE STUFF...... SLAP-DASH AND GO STUFF!!!! ITS GOOD! BUT NOT GOOD ENOUGH!
IM RAMBLING..... SOO I'M GONNA STOP.. AND GO AND SHUT OFF THAT FUCKIN TAP THAT IS DRIPPIN IN THE OTHER ROOM.....
MORNING WORLD.... FRIENDS AND LOVERS
I MISS YOU!xx
